My basic goal is to meet my obligations. That means I have to work, since I've made a commitment to my employers, and that's how the bills get paid. That means I have to teach krav, because I've said I would.

Everything else is optional. I medicate with the day job in mind, and tear myself up inside when I can't teach when I'm supposed to.

Right now I'm having a bad headache--I'd rate it at about an 8. On a Sunday night, especially if this sort (these don't respond well to triptans), I'd be wondering about the ER.

I wonder if that makes me weak. Time has either given me worse headaches or worse tolerance, because I go way too often.

But I'd rather spend $75 dollars than miss a day of work. But I hate the feeling of the drugs, the after effect of the drugs, the favours I have to ask, the vulnerability I have to display, and not only am I becoming friends with one of the Century City nurses, so is my escort.

But it's not a school night, and I have acupuncture tomorrow morning which will probably kick this puppy, at least for a few hours. Long enough for me to teach, I hope, and I'll keep my fingers crossed that I don't have to go in to work. Please, project, please finish before 1 and let me get my rest.

I had been making dinner plans for tomorrow, and there is a party I'd like to attend, but maybe dinner can be lunch instead, or postponed, and my simplest ride to the party isn't going, and I should get the rest anyway, since the past two weekends have been pretty much shot one way or another.

That's what it is for me...juggling the optional stuff as best I can. At some point, sleep seems to have made it onto the optional list. Not sure how that happened.